Pulling away.

When this week is over, I am going to take a break. I’ll sit myself down and decide for certain what my endgame will be. This roller-coaster of a year is about to end and I refuse for it to do so on a low note. I won’t let you win, world. No matter how hard you try to keep me blue, I will be happy.

I will be because I choose to be.

Love, We Must Part Now / Philip Larkin

Love, we must part now: do not let it be
Calamitious and bitter. In the past
There has been too much moonlight and self-pity:
Let us have done with it: for now at last
Never has sun more boldly paced the sky,
Never were hearts more eager to be free,
To kick down worlds, lash forests; you and I
No longer hold them; we are husks, that see
The grain going forward to a different use.

There is regret. Always, there is regret.
But it is better that our lives unloose,
As two tall ships, wind-mastered, wet with light,
Break from an estuary with their courses set,
And waving part, and waving drop from sight.

I’m not sure I believe this yet but someday, I know I will.

One thought on “Pulling away.

  1. Gabbie says:

    Amen to that last sentence! I think you posted a similar quote in a previous post, and naalala ko itong version. It’ll turn out alright eventually Nash. See you tomorrow. šŸ™‚

    Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out.
    Vaclav Havel

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