When this week is over, I am going to take a break. I’ll sit myself down and decide for certain what my endgame will be. This roller-coaster of a year is about to end and I refuse for it to do so on a low note. I won’t let you win, world. No matter how hard you try to keep me blue, I will be happy.
I will be because I choose to be.
Love, We Must Part Now / Philip Larkin
Love, we must part now: do not let it be
Calamitious and bitter. In the past
There has been too much moonlight and self-pity:
Let us have done with it: for now at last
Never has sun more boldly paced the sky,
Never were hearts more eager to be free,
To kick down worlds, lash forests; you and I
No longer hold them; we are husks, that see
The grain going forward to a different use.
There is regret. Always, there is regret.
But it is better that our lives unloose,
As two tall ships, wind-mastered, wet with light,
Break from an estuary with their courses set,
And waving part, and waving drop from sight.
I’m not sure I believe this yet but someday, I know I will.